I have always regard Chinese New Year as a brand new year. A brand new beginning, a brand new start. A year to repent on your past mistakes. You learn and experience things every year, this is how you improve yourself. 2010 is a perfect wake up call for me. A year where I experience everything. A year which knock me out from my dreamland. Thinking how good I am but I'm not. I'm a fucked up bastard person till the point of 2010. I have not been a good person at all. I'm trying to make up for all the mistakes that I have done.
It's a good thing that I came back. If i never came back, the most regret thing i would have done is to let you go. It's never the same anymore as we all know it. But it will be a brand new chapter, a brand new book of it. We won't want to look what is behind us, we look forward. Every chapter of the book needs something, I hope I can get that something back. I'm on a mission. A "must win" mission. I couldn't afford to lose. I hope it's not too late. I have done a lot of thing wrong. Jealousy that always lead me to aggressive attitude. This is what I've always been doing. Yes everyone could be jealous of everything, but just swallow it. Think about it like you are putting vinegar on a shark fin and drink it. It's nice. Think on some positive side. I have so many things to tell you, I have missed so many things in your life. I can't afford to miss anymore. I want to be part of every second. That doesn't mean I'm trying to occupy every second of your life or controlling your freedom. It's just like when you're breathing, I'm breathing with you. Everyday joy or sorrow, I'll be there. I have so many things to do for all my past mistakes.
As long as we have memories, yesterday remains. As long as we have hope, tomorrow waits. As long as we have love, today is beautiful.