When can i smile to the sun instead of showing my unhappiness to the sun waiting for that shining light to light up my life?
I can only bow my head down. When can i lift my head up?

My name: Bai HongFu
When can i smile to the sun instead of showing my unhappiness to the sun waiting for that shining light to light up my life?
Learning does not happen in school. Happens everyday, our lifestyle, every moment. I have pretty much things to learn from, everywhere. Never stop learning till the day my body being kept in the coffin. In this world nobody is perfect, there's only people near perfection. Being near perfection is impossible to be. I'm nowhere near half of perfection, maybe i don't even have the confidence to learn to be half perfect. Whatever mistake i've made, whatever wrong things i've done every year, month, day, all i can say to myself is sorry and regret. I hope i can achieve 1 thing in my life, is never regret on a single thing i've done. Learning to make right decision, do the right thing everytime is never an easy task but i'll hope i can do it. So therefore, people i may have offended, disappoint, hurt or even being unreasonable to anybody; please forgive me. I may not know what i've done wrong or do it unknowingly to anybody in this world, i can only say sorry. This post is not referring to anyone, is just the way i feel.
No matter how much effort you put into it, how nice you wan to be, at the start once you are being seen as a minority, you shall always be a minority. Like in studies, work smart, not work hard to achieve good results. No point working hard for 10 hours and still lose to a person who work smart for 2hrs. While in relationships kind, its better to be smart and not to work hard to try to get yourself "promote". Know your authority, know where you stand and know whose the 1 really worthy for you to treat them the best. This is just something that can't be force, as long as you're happy with it, even only there is 3 or 4 in the group, you will still feel much happier than you are in the group of 15 with divided status.
Is there really brotherhood between friends? Is it so much difficult to enjoy this brotherhood if like girls is around? Not saying that friends cannot mix with girls and guys. But what is lacking in friendship/brotherhood is equality between different sex. From my point of view, for girl friends, whatever demand or whatsoever, they will just do it. But if is ur guy friends, its just a minority? What's the point of being gentleman in front of the girls but towards the guys is different treatment? Is this somehow a 2 sided person or is it a natural thing to be install into human's body.
Action speaks louder than words. Why do people tend to be contradicting? Why are human so joke and dumb to think that when they say something to other people, the people will just believe it and agree with it? Will superman tell u that he can fly with words and not by action, would you believe it? Will spiderman tell you that he can shoot out webs and climb the wall just by words and without action, would you believe it? Why are people saying a thing but in fact, in all people eyes they are doing another thing. I just wish to know why. Everyone in this world should know action speaks louder than words. Than why people still make it words speaks louder than action? Its kind of a strange thing thats all i can say.

